All I want is the taste that your lips allow. ♥

Hey guysss! Well, its been a while since I last updated and things have been pretty hectic. Reasons are just because of family and I don't really want to get into them..Another reason is because well.. My photography dreams are ruined until I can come up with $500. My family is building a deck for our backyard, and I took before pics for it. Well, when I did, I put it on one of our lawn chairs and I totally forgot about it, so the sprinklers got it. The next morning, I was pissed, and I started to cry. I literally cried for 5 hours straight just because that camera was like my baby. No joke. I was so devastated. So, I couldn't even tell my grandma about it because I know she would be so disappointed because it wasn't a cheap camera. So I asked her if the warranty was still good, and she said no, sadly. She asked me why, and I told her. She was so sad. Later on, I had to mow her lawn, and I had my earbuds in. She said something and I yelled at her because I couldn't control my voice. I asked her what and she said "nothing." and then she walked away. We have been getting into so many fights lately.. Like its not even funny..

So, off that subject, I went to Beks a few days ago and had a really good time. It was really fun getting to see my 2nd family again..

Alright, sorry this is short, ill update more later.

Love you guys.

*Ching*

-Chelsea <3

Losing him..

Now, for all of you who realize that I'm going out with Trevor, I know. I'm not saying that I'm going to break-up with Trev, I'm just saying. Its going to be hard for me to do this blog post- so please don't hate on me for it..

I need to forget about.. well.. Taylor.
But its so hard.. He keeps coming back to my mind and its like its impossible for him to leave it. I'm an idiot for leaving him hanging in the first place. He was everything that a girl wants and I just couldn't see that. I have so many emotions and feelings for him and I just can't express this to anyone, not even James. Its like  I'm in love, but at this age, I can't be. It's like he put a spell to love him forever and I just can't deal with this.. Hes so special to me, and I feel like every time I talk to him I need to spill my feelings for him, and I know I can't do that because it will just make everything worse. I really have no idea what I'm going to do. I wish someone would help me just figure all of this out. I feel so lost. And I'm posting this on here because I know he won't read it.

Sorry for rambling about my love life that's horrible -_- Anyway, Phillip came over today and to be honest, it made me happy. We talked about our life's and how bad they suck. Then, we got happy. We have a friendship rock that we bite every time we see each other.  I have to admit, Phillip has probably always been there for me when nobody else was. I mean, I do have other friends that were, but I felt like I could only trust Phillip with those things, ya know? So, we laughed, snapchatted Marco, and basically just had a great time.

These last 2 days have been great. I'm trying to beat my streak which was 4 days. (During Christmas at Rebekah's) Love you guys <3

Song Of The Day: Spend The Night- Charlie Puth. You guys can find Charlie on YouTube, and this song on Spotify. I love this song so much, and I cried really bad the first time I listened to it.

** No shoutout** I'm no longer going to do shoutouts unless its a big thing. Okay?

betcha didn't know that i'm a mess.

Panda Sex and Marshmallows...

Hey guys! So I know its been a while since I'v posted, but I wanted you guys to know that I'm not dead. Because I seriously think that some of you think I am...BUT I'M NOT OKAY. Alright, so recently I'v been just chilling at home and watching my new obsession. Teen Wolf.  This show, oh my lord. Its so amazing. I really like it. I have 4 more episodes until I reach the end, and to be honest, I really don't want it to end. I mean, that means I can't watch it again on MTV until I can catch up on ALL of the season 3. Which pisses me off. same goes for Pretty Little Liars.

I went to Bek's today (even though its Friday at 1 in the morning.. whoops..) and I had the best time. So, I was hoping that Zach would be there, but then I found out hes in Utah with Sarah, so I won't see him until the 10th of July, sadly. So when I got into Rigby from Idaho Falls because I had to go into Idaho Falls to get wood for my new fence (Which is almost done and I'm so excited!) , my mom dropped my off at Beks. I get into the driveway and I see Bek and Sienna jumping on the trampoline holding eachothers arms and breathing really hard into their faces. My mom says "What the fuck are they doing..?" "I honestly, don't know.." So I left and went inside the house and put my stuff in Beks room and then I said Hi to Andrew. I couldn't figure out how to get out to the backyard, so I just went out and did my own thing until I decided I would go outside. I went outside, but Bek&Sienna were already walking back to the house. So we said Hi and then we went inside. We just basically hung out and played "CrotchBall" in the living room  -_-

Reino and Julie came home, and they had grocery's, so we put all of them away. Tonight was actually supposed to be Movie Night, but the DVD player didn't work for Iron Man 2. Andrew was downstairs, and Adam was playing Minecraft. We went downstairs (Bek, Sienna, Andrew, and I) and we played Curses. Afterwards, we played this game called Cards Against Humanity.  This is my new favorite game. Its such an amazing game. Like seriously, its amazing. If you guys don't play it, you need to. You will laugh SO HARD.

I'm very proud to say that LiL MiSS EPiC and I are now the co-founders are a new couple. Ladies and Gentlemen, I introduce....

ADNA.

This is the couple of Adam and Sienna. They are literally so cute. If you want to read more about this, please go to the 3rd paragraph on this post. It will explain everything perfectly.

Alright, Well. I gotta go. Its going onto 2:30 in the morning and I really need to go watch creepy YouTube videos. So, I guess I'll talk to you all later, right? Love you guys (:

Song of the Day: Give Me Your Hand- The Ready Set.

Shout-out of the day: Adna. Stay safe, kids ;)

-s i g h- Let thou hate commence.

For those of you who follow my Tumblr, and were on last night, would have seen the fight I had between an anonymous person. They were incredibly rude to me, and I seriously hate anons. But I had a lot of help from Trevor( I love you babe <3 ), some of my Tumblr friends, and James.

The first anon:
Quit being such a whore and just kill yourself. You're not worth it,

My response:
Okay. Ill get right to that.

2nd anon:
Seriously. just fucking stop with all of this "I wanna be cooler than you!" shit. Just keep cutting yourself. No one would fucking care if you left.

my response:
OH REALLY. LISTEN TO ME YOU LITTLE RETARDED ASSHOLE. I’V GONE THROUGH WAY TOO MUCH SHIT TONIGHT TO HAVE YOU HURT ME. You have no idea what I have gone through in my past and I don’t need your hate at the moment. So please, stop…

What Trevor said after that anon:
leave Chelsea alone anon she didn't do shit to you, she's not anything close to a whore, trust me i would know, she's my best friend.

My response:
Thanks, Trev<3

Another anon:
um I don't fucking care what ur friends say. they still don't change how I feel about u. I honestly think u just need to shut the fuck up and go the hell away. no wonder trevor will never go out with you your ugly as fuck and your scars will probably stay there forever and make you even uglier

I just about cried my eyes out because of that one. That one hurt the most I think..

Trevor said:
anon get the fuck outta here, chelsea is gorgeous, & her scars are what makes her what she is today, & i love what she is, so i will date her she's an amazing fucking girl so take your false lies & rude comments somewhere else because theres no need for it. you're a fucking cunt that won't come off anon anyways

to be honest, I about smiled through my tears during that one.. c:

THE ANON WOULD NOT STOP.

They said:
first of all im not a cunt, you are for supporting Chelsea and "liking" her. shes a bitch, cant you see? shes fucking nothing. and her scars are ugly. UGLY. she doesn't belong here on earth because shes horrible at everything she does and she thinks that she can just do everything she wants. shes stupid as hell.

Uhm. She/he was hurting me so much..

And then I got A LOT more help from my followers, James, and Trevor.


To be honest, I don't want to talk about this at all, so I wont. But, lets just say, what the anon said hurt me and my relationship with Trevor.

Im sorry this is so short, but I just cant deal with all of this right now. Im crying my eyes out right now because what they said still hurt me, and I just cant contain how much Im hurting at the moment.

Song of the day: No Interruption-Hoodie Allen
This song is about sex, true, but it reminds me of how sexy JC Caylen is ;)

Shoutouts of the day: James, Trev, and Bek.

James; Thanks for helping last night! You are amazing and I love your theme on Tumblr. Keep rebloggin, buddy. <3

Trevor; Please stop getting grounded for having weed in your room -_- Baby, I love you. You are so amazing and you keep me strong. Thanks, cuddlebuns c;

Bek:
Im so sorry about you and Daws ):Im glad you guys are okay though. I understand how scary it can be though, I went through the same thing last summer, with a guy I met. I helped him to whole night. Stay strong!!!! I believe in you! (:

----...Chelsea...----

Dive so deep into you.

How many of you have ever tried to get rid of someone by not talking to them and just plain avoiding them? I have. Over the course of 3 months I have tried to get rid of the boy that I want the most in this world. And, don't guess Arnie, please. I found out some pretty tragic things earlier and I really don't want to talk about them because they would just bring me down from the whole cheating situation. The boy I am talking about is Taylor Hively. I never really noticed how much I had missed him after I talked to James about it. I started talking to Taylor again about 2 weeks ago and at first he told me that he still had feelings for me, because I told James to tell him what I had been telling James how much I missed Taylor, Valentines Day, and I didn't want to lose him and etc. Taylor had told James that he was giving me a second chance and that he still wanted to be with me. About a week later, Taylor told me he had lost feelings for me, and that he didn't like me anymore. I truthfully, was hurting. But, this had happened so many times before with other guys, I didn't know why it would. I haden't feel hurt with any of the other guys that had friendzoned me before, so I guess, I could conclude, Taylor was different. So, on Saturday I went over to my grandmothers and usually I take her phone because she has the new Windows 8 phone, and I downloaded Kik on it so I can talk to all of my long-distance friends(Tumblr,Youtube, etc.) and friends from Rigby and IF. And the whole time I was on kik, no messages except from Trevor and Dane. So, after I went to lunch with my grandma and mother, we went back to my grandmas house and I told my mom bye because I was spending the night at my grandmas house. Afterwards, my grandma and i went to the store and we bought food for me (Since she has like NOTHING at her house.) We went to Sams Club, Fred Meyers, then Shopko. In Sams club I got animal crackers and they are sooo good!! And then Fred Meyers was the best place in the world.. I saw Taylor there.. We just kind of ran into eachother. We said hi and had a super duper awkward conversation. But, Thats alright. Because that night he said that he was happy to see me and that his feelings for me might come back if we hang out more. We were supposed to hang out today, but he couldn't make it. Sadly.
Anway. I'm just so happy that Taylor and I might get back together and we can just be a super happy couple.

Song of the Day:
Princess&&I Fell In Love Once- Chace Coy.
This song has only been one of my favorites for like. 2 minutes no joke. Its only 41 seconds, but it fades into a different song called "I Fell In Love Once". They both are really good songs, and I have fallen in love with Chace Coy because another one of my bestfriends, Kenzie, told me about him. He is an amzing singer, so you guys should check him out(:

Shoutouts: Rebekah, James, and Taylor<3

Rebekah: Im not mad at you anymore. I was just mad because you should've just asked me. So. Yeah, BTW: Happy almost birthday<3 I can't get you the watermelon cake, but I'll try my best during the summer. Okay? Im just really tight on money and can't. I'm trying really hard to get you a perfect present tho.(:

James; BRO. YOU TOTALLY MADE OUT WITH CUDDLEFISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Taylor; Hey. I love you, k bye. c":

~ . Chelsea-Evelyn . ~

Happy Endings Are Stories That Haven't Ended Yet.

Well, I'm single.

He cheated on me with his ex. And its pretty hard for me to write on my blog about this right now, because my eyes are puffy with tears and almost closed shut. I am crying so hard right now guys.. I really need some help.. Please, somebody talk to me.I just really need someone right now..

-Chelsea-

Inspirational Music.

So I really need some inspirational music, guys..
And heres the catch:
You give me some inspirational music and I will give you any type of music you need(:
 Comment  below and I'll make a Spotify playlist of the music you guys gave me(:

Thank you guys!!!

-Chelsea-